So i talked to Jen and she basically said the only way i was going to get over Karen is to just suck it up and stop thinking about her, i need to be better, so im going to actively try. I tried over the summer but obviously was not successful. I just need to redirect those emotions. I have friends that deserve and could make use of the attention that i give to Karen; she doesn't even want it or need it. So im not in love with her. I am a friend and a friend only, i have no long term feelings, I am over her all the way. In fact im so over her i don't even remember, who, no what is a Karen?
See im done, im replacing the amazing times i had last semester with the ones happening this semester.
Like hanging out with sal, or chillin with uji, playing with Tuesdays cats. It has been a really fun semester. I went snowboarding like 4 times or so so far. I may not be doing so hot in school, but I am clinically depressed and im learning how to cope and deal with it on a daily basis. I am going through a rough patch, and it will get better. I may not and most of the time don't see it getting any better, but people tell me it will. R tells me it does, I really do trust her, hoping its not left over feelings of trust from b4.
I really miss my car, it sounds stupid, but i love my car, i don't care what it takes im going to rebuild the engine, and keep her.
But its ok i have a pretty ok car! Im still alive from the maneuver that got her in the shop to begin with. Im lucky for that, that was scaaaaary!!!! we could have totally been tboned like 6 ways, literally. If we were 60 seconds later we may not be here, I feel worse about endangering someone else's life, i have no problem risking my own neck but i have no right to do so to another!! Well thats in the past and ill stay there. So im here now, finals week, just chillin. feelin arite. cool as a cucumber.