So since Monday, things are getting better. I feel OK about the car situation, comfortable with my financial situation, and dark thoughts have been repelled to the outskirts of my mind. I just recalled in class that Ive never really told anyone until recently, Z and I were talking about death. I mentioned that when I die I want to be cremated, after organs have been harvested. Then maybe released somewhere, a cool place like a lake, river, waterfall, space, mountain, field. Just somewhere cool.