Karen

So karen, I couldent stop thinking about her last nite. This morning, i feel like shit. About becca, im waiting to hear back from her, if she calls im sorry for making her cry but honestly she wanted me to agree with her that she needed to get her sleep and about the plane ticket situatuon. i dont agree, its not me thats having an issue its her, she should know that im looking out for her best intrest as always. I realize i dont mind being that guy when it comes to comforting other people but i do admit that lately shes been taking advantage of my intrest in her life. I have my own shit going on and i do get to serve my own needs before the needs others, sometimes. I wish she could see it this way, I wish she would choose our friendship over her anger. I feel like being allone maybe... iduno if i wanted to be allone the libbrary prob isnt the best idea, however staying at home was not a choice eiher, the exterminator was to come today, a 9am to 1 pm. I was going to do laundry and get shit done looks like thats postponed for another day, i do need to do my vcu app and do landury and call apple about the job, and maybe apply else where, talk to dad about housing, and pickup recepits for msa.. im bored and tired of this, i want change no i need change! I ikinda feel as though im getting squished under all of the pressure, however looking analytically there is no real cause at all, maybe my own expectations, expectations that are getting shattered. but sometimes its ok to be emo. rite? i think so, i mean its not normal to be happy all of the time.